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october 15, 2010

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-EXAMS

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EXAMS (oct 11-14)

HELL HELL HELL. i didn't finish almost all of my exams :| like GEOM.TRIGO.CHEM.GT.DRAFTING.

my hopes are as low as the core of the earth. i'm not expecting good grades this quarter. and i'm ready for my mother's loud ranting and my father's soft killing talk. i'm also ready for a line of 7 :| especially in those subjects and the others that aren't included.

i've got three words for everyone, (i guess you won't be reading this, cause' there are 0 people reading my blog but what the hell) KILL ME NOW. thank you very much :)

DREAM (oct 15)

so my dream last night was a dream come true, well not really a dream come true. cause' i didn't see some porsche and audi or whatever you spell it.

so the dream consists of 3 dreams :>

the first dream was about MAM, short for our friend KLARIZA :) she went away for a while and we miss her very much :) anyway, in the dream she came out of nowhere (well actually we were at our house :)) then moments later i said "MAM!" then hugged her :) maybe because i miss her and tomorrow (technically today) will be our 1st anniversary and she's not there and all.

the second dream was about MANGO :"> it was plain, we were talking LIKE THE USUAL nothing much here :))

the third dream caught me off guard :O it was about green =))) woah. it's been a LOOONG while since i dreamed about him :))) actually that was when i still have feelings for him, which is OBVIOUSLY gross, but that's normal so yeah. going back, we were somewhere with people and he talked to me (like he used to in freshmen year) and you know he picked on me and blah blah. i mean why the hell, all of a sudden, did that happen. i was surprise, maybe i just wanted that HUGE NOT TALKING DAYS over. i guess, i ACCEPTED that his chapter in my life is finally over and replaced him with someone better (look, i consider mango better ok). and i'm thankful for that and now MAYBE i just wanted that days to go back :)) i dunno. BTW, he changed O.O like woah. i mean he's doing good in his studies now, and he's getting a bit better than me. and i am competing with him >:) 3rd quarter and i'm ready >:)))

OUT!

one click

so i got bored and forgot that i have to do something just now so instead of doing it i searched for blogs here. and i came up on a blog that was very inspiring. i didn't know that guys could be that sweet.

so the blog was about his boyfriend and her going to the malls and how she's thankful of him cause he treats her food and clothes and blah blah blah. and i got so happy, it made me think how guys can be that sweet to you :"> URG. mangoooo =)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

SHARING :)))

i need to loosen up haven't studied yet >:)) MOJAJA!

a john mayer

have you heard of john mayer's song "dreaming with a broken heart"?

it's a very lonely song, but i appreciate it :) it's still beautiful and i love the piano part.

"Dreaming With A Broken Heart"

When you're dreaming with a broken heart

The waking up is the hardest part

You roll outta bed and down on your knees

And for the moment you can hardly breathe

Wondering was she really here?

Is she standing in my room?

No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart

The giving up is the hardest part

She takes you in with your crying eyes

Then all at once you have to say goodbye

Wondering could you stay my love?

Will you wake up by my side?

No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Oooooooooohhhhhhhhh

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand

Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?

Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?

Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hand?

Baby won't you get them if i did?

No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart

The waking up is the hardest part

i still remember the first time i heard this song. i was on the dining table, drawing stupid things because i was so depressed about school and at home. i was like all alone and believe it or not i was holding back tears. i think it was the time i was so stressed at school because of the projects, and my brothers and my mom and i got into a fight. it felt like hell, cause i always feel so damn sad. still this song makes me cry, but hey, at least i woked up at ease the next morning :)

5 MORE DAYS :)

october 11, 2010

"Another sun soaked season fades away"

the moment i got up from bed until i got to the service i was still thinking about my exams, and recalling what I've studied last night.

guess what, he was right behind me when i was on my way to the classroom. YIPEE! :)

first exam: GEOMETRY.

KILL IT FOR ME PLEASE. i got a lot of items unanswered. and i swear, this is serious, i won't make it to our reunion. EF GEOM.EF IT EF IT >.<

i so hate it, GHOWRD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

second exam: CLVE.

CURSE MY STUPIDNESS FOR THIS. i didn't review and i was all guessing and i'm effing hating it. ghowrd first day, and i'm already on a bad mood. END PLEASE END!

third exam: GT.

good thing colors make me happy :) i dunno why but you know, beautiful colors makes you more relaxed. it makes my stress go BYE BYE!

so yeah didn't finish that 9 point part in gt. suckish but at least i answered the essay which was 15 points. I GUESS.

he made me feel good today :] THANK YOU. i don't know why, but i kept looking at him, which is kinda gross (SRSLY IT'S GROSS) and i look at him and he looks back and it goes on forever =)) which is funny cause, if i remember correctly, one time (today) when i looked at him and he looked back he kinda noticed me looking at him and he made a weird smiling face its like this --> O.O but with a smile and i looked back cause it's weird and when i looked again he's still looking and URGH. it's weird =)))) whew*

CROSS FINGERS FOR ME :)

i didn't know...

"Everyone is going to hate you, your just gotta

find that one person worth suffering for"

STILL ON THE UPDATES!

-MARK MANGO

-BEFORE THE TEACHERS DAY

-MURA

-MIRA DRAMA

-INOCENTE

----------MARK MANGO :) 10-07-2010

"if he loves you, he'll give you all his time, PERIOD"

it was ap/gt time and i was having good vibes. mango was very unruly today :)) i'm still suspecting that he was the one throwing those little bits of eraser :P he's so mean to me.

anyway, at the gt lab i was like done, and he was done, and like i was painting this I ♥ U thing on the paper. and he was like "aaaw, i love you too" i was like "weh? feeling?!" =)))))

anyway, i was getting my SDG from him and i accidentally painted his uniform. and he got a bit mad at me. but hey that won't last ;)

OH OH! there was this was one time. when we were all sleepy and i sat next to margie, and he's chair >:) anyway. minutes later i felt someone sat next to me. since my head was bowed down, because i was trying to sleep, i couldn't see, right? so when i moved my head upright i looked at this person next to me and noticed that it was mango :"> SHIIIIZ.

KILIG MEN!

and we were like teasing each other and i was just having a good time. and my hands are shivering. and you know, i want that moment to freeze. it was perfect but it ended :|

----------BEFORE THE TEACHERS DAY 10-07-2010 (NIGHTTIME)

i was so EFD up. things are on my mind like "i've got this bad feeling that some are backstabbing me." it was just a feeling not sure if it is real. it was just a feeling until......

----------MURA 10-08-2010 (morning)

"ang mga taong nagpaparinig ay ang mga taong DUWAG"

i had a bad start because i'm still wondering if i was getting back stabbed and all and it got even worst when i heard michelle's story. and like my body was getting goosebumps, and i was literally in the tip of crying but i decided not too cause that'll be all weird and all. but it hurts so much when everyone's gonna hurt you. when everyone, all of sudden, will turn their backs to you. it hurts. i wanted to cry, i wanted to say EF you why'd you do that to us. if your courageous enough, tell it to our faces.

----------MIRA DRAMA 10-08-2010 (9 or so)

i saw denise crying i thought it was a different story and just ignored it. but when regina and denise told me everything i was literally fighting back tears. and michelle and margie came in and they started to cry except me. i know i'm stronger, my fighting back tears says so. then when i heard margie's trembling voice, dear ghad i got all teary.

went to the gym and i said sorry to everyone and seriously wanted to hug everyone and just say i'm sorry. and everything just ended their. at last, i thought this burden will be with me forever. thanks to everyone who loved us ;)

----------INNOCENTE 10-08-2010 (noon)

i figured out that his very innocent. he was their smiling at me when i saw him at the parking lot. seeing him smiled like that, at me, is worth every teardrop. it made me feel better. at least i know that even if everyone was turning their backs on me, i know that he was there making me smile :) at least i know that he didn't notice anything different. at least i know that i was the same in his eyes, even if at others i was totally different. SALAMAT MANGO! :)

........ even if i know you like her and i'm all jealous! :D

------------------STAY :]

definition of a good time

I HAVEN'T BLOG FOR WEEKS.

SORRY.

i got stuck on tumblr and facebook and school and i'm back to ym, so I'M SORRY :)

first things first, UPDATES!

-DOCU (1)

-DOCU (2)

-INFINITY PROJECTS

-BUHAY EXAMS

-----------------DOCU (1) 10-01-2010

it was a rainy friday. i got up LATE. it was already 9 when i woke up and checked my phone.

i was about to go to margie's house today at 9 but since i woke up late 10 will be a good call.

we did nothing there, except MOCK people and of course surf the net.

we went to walter at around 2. saw timoy and millare and decided to stop by to mcdo while we wait for michelle's dad. when he got there we went to balibago. and decide to go to target before looking for little kid's working. so we just interviewed random people. who i am say are effing shy. GHAD. anyway after that we went to the church and spotted kids selling "sampaguita" and decided to help them so we had a fun time selling it. sold about 50 of those of something. at least we sold some of them right? YEY FOR US!

after that we treated them for some JB. it was fun and very tiring but at least the weather agreed with us right?

-----------------DOCU (2) 10-03-2010

they went at my house, with denise of course ;)

had a couple of watching. I'M DATING HANNAH MONTANA! =)))

so we decided to do the real thing now. and had a hilarious time. a while later we went and ate and did some funny stuffs again.

this day is nothing much but at least people made me laugh. THAT'S IMPORTANT.

-----------------INFINITY PROJECTS. 10-09-2010

still cramming today. i don't know what to do with my project in music. sean told me to do it, since i have done nothing i decided to do it na lang. at least other proejcts were done na, and but i'm still stuck to exams next week. i'm having a feeling that my geometry grade won't do me any good this quarter. oh what the hell.

----------------BUHAY EXAMS. 10-09-2010

guess what next week are our exams, right? and what the ef am i still doing here in front of the computer typing words that will still make me pissed as ever! URG. i'm getting back to you soon blogger. let me do my studying first ;)