January 18, 2012
Don't let your guard down hold your head up life
comes at you fast gotta STAY STRONG
I don't know why i'm telling this to the public but I just have to blog for the sake of letting out all of the emotions I had//having these past few days.
Reality hit me with a large pan in the face. I cried for more than an hour after knowing that I didn't passed my "dream school". Almost all we're happy cause they got what they wanted, and I'm sitting here, drowning myself in tears, telling myself that "maybe it ain't for me" or "maybe God has better plans for you, don't give up". Like what my dad said, after crying you gotta pick up your sword and fight again. I just felt so crushed with what happened, and until now I feel so bitter about it all.
Well, now that I'll be taking up the validating exam, I feel so brainless. I feel like "why should I be taking this stupid test, if I know that I won't be passing it anyway?! I'll be wasting time and money." My dad told me not to give up, they won't get it anyway. I mean if I ever passed the exam I should still maintain a grade of something like 95+ , ghad I don't even think that I could do something like that. I know my capabilities, and this is something that I can't handle.
My dad asked me earlier, "Ano gagawin mo kapag hindi ka nakapasa?" I stop and froze. It was the first time that I froze like that, I couldn't think properly, and at that very moment I understood why all of this is happening to me.
My father was right, my cowardly emotions dragged me down. I should not stop fighting, everyone else are happy why can't I be? I may not have gotten what I desire, but it's never an excuse to stop life. Everything does happen for a reason, and life isn't always gotta turn out good, it will always give you a challenge, that whether you like it or not, you should always do it. After all, not all trials will last forever, sadness doesn't end forever, it's just a sign to let everyone know that you are capable of staying strong and proving that you are worthy.
