"there's no guy at school that matches up with my expectations"
arrived at school, with me biting my lips, i do that most of the time, i don't know why.
i was close to the door when i saw him gazing at me. i didn't stare at him i just know that he looked.
i dropped my bag at my chair and went outside another time, to put my small bag at the rack.
i changed my shoes and ask michelle/denise (forgot who) to accompany me to the lockers.
i got my books and went inside the classroom but went outside again to form our lines.
after the flag ceremony we went inside our classroom and started our class.
chemistry was our first subject. we played a little game about types of mixtures.
i found it hard, nope easy, i guess a little bit of both.
filipino was not that great, i was getting bored rather sleepy. i was just copying what was posted on the board.
mass was up. i found myself being close to him, well i guess not that close maybe two steps from me. everytime i kneel i can feel that his just near, well that's just gross.
recess, i was thinking why he stayed at that corner not at the other side. i didn't get my hopes high, i just pretended like i didn't care, cause really I DIDN'T.
i did my quiz at the it lab, but it think i'll be getting a low grade, since it looked pathetic.
trigo, i was almost dying with depression when i asked karla if i passed or not. thank heavens i did, i was really scared that i'll get 16 but i didn't. jerome even thinked that i was being a total lunatic, when i prayed hoping to get high scores. but you know it paid off.
we did some singing action at lunch time. but before the singing started i saw some guys flip-toping. i thought they were fighting but they weren't. they're being jerks, there's no reason to flip-top, they're just making a fool out of themselves.
when i was at the door of mirabello with some friends, he passed by gazing at me. now this time, our eyes locked, with that my heart skipped a beat, knowing that it was inappropriate i looked away.it happened again, and i admit, it was my fault.
music, had a quiz. they were having teamwork and i was working my butt off.
his friends were behind me, and called me.
"hanna oh", his friend said while pointing to him.
"so???" i was being calm, i tried not to panic, i breathed.
"pwde daw bang manligaw?" at this point i was panicking. i noticed he wasn't looking at me, he's still affected, if he's not then he can look at me right?
"bawal." i didn't know what to say, i was really panicking.
"anung bawal?" his friend replied.
"hindi, anu..wala nman siang tinatanong eh" at this point he was smiling, and i can tell that they were making fun of me then his friend began to say..
"itanong mo" while pushing him....
just like that i looked away, then i heard them saying what i wrote in my msg to him. they have issues, they need a psychologists, cause they were clearly psychos.
at filipino time my seat mates were tickling me, i saw him looking at my direction and the first word that popped in my mind was "JEALOUS?". that was just gay but i admit, i did really thought of that.
club time wasn't that fun, i was lip syncing and my hair was a complete mess.
cK was looking innocent i was looking like a complete psycho looking at him.
i lined up for the sdg's, when someone stepped on my foot, it was him. something popped out of my mind right then and there i said, "bastusan pala ah". i got annoyed but i wasn't being literal.
i went outside to find him there, "ef!" i thought.
nero called me and said, if i remember correctly, "hindi ko nakuha number ni samar", i saw him there so i said "aaaaw" i was trying to make him jealous, but it didn't work. he didn't care, well i hope not.
i put my bag on the service, but went back the second time to put my id and fan inside.as i try to catch up with my friends i passed by him, he looked again, we almost had this connection but i tried to ignore it.
we were about to go to xander's house for a trial run, for health. the look a like guy was standing there, i felt uncomfortable. we kept on thinking of ways to get out of school and go to rustan's.
after 45 minutes we found ourselves at allen's car. he dropped at rustan's, after saying thank you we went in, laughing.
we bought our ingredients and some snacks. after all the buying, we went out and held a tricycle.
we were six and there are only five seats. there was only one option, KANDUNGAN NA TOH.
raphy, nica, michelle and i were inside while denise and astrid sat outside. i was the person sitting at nica's lap. it was hard, my butt hurt, i felt like i was about to urinate and i was laughing. good thing i didn't fell cause if i did then that would leave a mark.
i was drinking my soda while walking. i noticed that xander's house was extremely big. it was 3x big than our house, it was degrading. we went inside and headed to the theater room. the smell was killing me but i need to adjust. we went back to the kitchen and went back to the theater room after washing up. we hanged there eating while talking about serious stuffs.
before i forget, they had the rock band set, it was cool and i wanted to try it.
we took a lot of pictures and ate a lot and had the most amazing time. it was a bummer that he didn't come, it will be a lot fun and a lot of serious and stabbing talk and of course playing but what's worst? more awkward moments to remember.
when they were done with the dish we tasted it and i felt italy. it was awesome, and perfect.
we went to the theater again to play the rock band. i tried the guitar and it was a lot easier than that of the psp. we had a lot of pictures after and a lot of fun again. by the way, i tried the drums too, first time was great.
went outside, had a couple of pictures while going to paseo. denise bought a cake and we went back again. they dropped us off at walter mart, it was scary and i was panicking.
good thing dad was there before i was kidnapped. i was joking, hahaha.
i took a shower and checked my facebook and went to bed.
this day was tiring, fun, heart skipping, and tense all in all it was an awesome day.
-----no smileys, just pure words.
